for the past few days, i've been trying to go back to my childhood.
maybe some part of me never wants to grow up. maybe i never intend to. well, fully anyway. but even as im trying to resist change, the world around me isn't.
yesterday, i happened to be at beauty world- y'know, the one along bukit timah. i used to take piano lessons at yamaha there. now its changed to some other music school. the old brown doors are still the same, the piano gallery is still there. the fire hose outside the school is still there.
but its different. somehow. everything's so polished. and clean and so not the way i remembered it :(
so i decided to cheer myself up by buying a kinder surprise! egg. and they weren't selling it :( felt so cheated. i want a tiny egg toy thing. i lost all mine when we moved in 98; nearly 10 years O:
i want to go back to my kindergarden. i want to see the old auntie who remembered my face when i hardly did hers. i want to see the basketball courts where we used to play 'what's the time mr wolf ' and kangaroo. i want to see the kids i grew up with. i want to sit on the side of the wall and put on my shoes. i want to watch the big gor-gors play basketball and wonder what it would be like to be a teenager. i want my timon and pumbaa linoleum floors. i want my cubby hole back :(
i want my childhood back. it ran away without telling me :( we're playing hide and seek and it never told me when to stop counting.
