every night i close my eyes, my brain does an automatic zoom in on some random image it created. like looking through a magnifying glass? in out in out. in the end, i fall asleep when my eyelids shut of their own accord.
and the falling dreams. before i can fall, i sit up, conscious; heart doing some complicated rain-dance rhythm. one night im gonna knock my head on the ceiling and lower my IQ by some scary 2-digit number. 2 DIGITS IS BIG NEWS ALREADY OKAY.
these are as close to nightmares as im going to get. i hope. why falling?
maybe im afraid of falling and falling. and realising there's no one there to catch me.
